|
Cloud_88
|
read my profile
sign my guestbook
Birthday: 12/23/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: I like to write, draw, do some stageacting, roleplay, sing, dance, play chess, football, badminton, baseball and most importantly of all, computer games.
Expertise: Well................writing, roleplaying, singing, stageacting and gaming I guess.....
Occupation: Student
Industry: Computers (Software)
Message: message me
MSN: cloud_dat@hotmail.com
ICQ:  149289914
Yahoo:  avenger_of_faith@yahoo.com
Member Since:
8/23/2004
|
|
| That's it...I'm fast approaching the realm of Apathy. There are just so
many things i couldn't care less about anymore. Love, friends, family,
future, etc. Why should i care? No one really notices anyway. No one
cares what I think of them, what i do for them, and how i FEEL for
them. I used to be able to "love" anyone no matter how bad that person
can be to me.....But not anymore. I DON'T want to love, I DON'T want to
care, and most of all I DON'T give a damn about what you think about ME.
The only few things that i "care" for right now are my pet sister, YKLS, and my future career.
| | |
| Well, it's done. There's no turning back now. I just hope she's happy
with the result, because she wished for it herself. I'm happy now that
at least SHE managed to break out of the "cycle".
I just hope that nothing will come and screw this up.
:/
| | |
| Sigh....another sacrifice....one that will go unnoticed....
Again.
She will never know what i've done for her, and what i'm doing for her.....not unless someone tells her.
I don't know why i did it. I guess it's because i love her and i
couldn't stand to see her this way. Like all the other things that i've
done before this, she would never know how much it meant to me....would
probably never appreciate it even if she knew what was happening.
But it's ok. That's what love is all about.
Sacrifice.
Hope everything goes well. 
| | |
| I know this is kinda late for a new year wish, but i just recently felt
that i'm in the mood to write a little again. I still may not be able
to write much(more because i'm not sure what to say then having nothng
to
say), but I'll just try to put up some "interesting stuff" eh? I'll
still probably won't be able to tell my deepest and darkest
secrets....but i'll try to at least tell some part of my miserable
existance.
Well...let's see...how to begin?
Many things have happened to me since i last posted here. One of which
is that i THINK i've officially given up on WS. I just don't have the
heart to go on anymore. I still think that i'm gonna be a bachelor for
the rest of my life, not because i can't get anyone, but more because i
can't let go.....Sad, isn't it? :/
Note that i said i give up, but that doesn't mean i stopped loving her.
It just means i'm not actively pursuing her anymore, because it seems
the more i try, the more distant she becomes.
On a happy note though, i'm finally back together again with AR. As long as i
have her by my side, i think i can live through with what little i have
now. I know i've told myself often not to depend too much on people
that i love, but, we all need ONE thing at least to hold on to, eh? :P
Anyway, i need to rush off for church service now, so i'll update again later.
BACK:
ARGHHH!! I lost my stationary case! I seem to have misplaced it somewhere. How am i supposed to do my work now? :'(
I'm
playing Heroes 3 again with some of my friends online. Why that old
game? Coz that game allows me to play while working at the same time,
since it's turn-based.
If anyone bothers to ask why i'm not
bothering to restore the shoutbox on the right side of the screen, it's
because nobody ever says anything there anyway. :/
On a side note, YKLS rehearsal tomorrow night! Hooray! Can't wait....^_^
 | | |
| "She" is back again....After much effort, i've managed to secure a
"promise" that she'll try to come out and meet up with our "gang"
again. This Friday's the date. But she's broken those many promises so
many times that i'm more or less expecting her not to turn up.
What i'm NOT prepared for is whether or not she really does have a
boyfriend. She claims she does, but knowing her background, i'd
probably say she's just trying to make me give up on her. But can i be
prepared when it turns out to be true? Will my heart be able to go on?
I think not.
I just hope that my "sister" has better luck than i do, but it seems
our fates are more or less similar and intertwined. Perhaps we're
cursed. Or perhaps we are just making the same mistakes that brought us
into this sorry state. I'll never know. If only she were here...I'd
hold her in my arms and cry...
I need you AR....Where are you? Why have you abandoned me?
| | |
|
|
