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The Path of Darkness

Sat, 20 Jan 2007 23:51:39 GMT

That's it...I'm fast approaching the realm of Apathy. There are just so many things i couldn't care less about anymore. Love, friends, family, future, etc. Why should i care? No one really notices anyway. No one cares what I think of them, what i do for them, and how i FEEL for them. I used to be able to "love" anyone no matter how bad that person can be to me.....But not anymore. I DON'T want to love, I DON'T want to care, and most of all I DON'T give a damn about what you think about ME.

The only few things that i "care" for right now are my pet sister, YKLS, and my future career.

It is FINISHED! (lawl)

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 00:02:33 GMT

Well, it's done. There's no turning back now. I just hope she's happy with the result, because she wished for it herself. I'm happy now that at least SHE managed to break out of the "cycle".

I just hope that nothing will come and screw this up.

:/

What i did for love....

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 16:01:51 GMT

Sigh....another sacrifice....one that will go unnoticed....

Again.

She will never know what i've done for her, and what i'm doing for her.....not unless someone tells her.

I don't know why i did it. I guess it's because i love her and i couldn't stand to see her this way. Like all the other things that i've done before this, she would never know how much it meant to me....would probably never appreciate it even if she knew what was happening.

But it's ok. That's what love is all about.

Sacrifice.

Hope everything goes well.

"Happy" New Year?

Sat, 13 Jan 2007 23:39:10 GMT

I know this is kinda late for a new year wish, but i just recently felt
that i'm in the mood to write a little again. I still may not be able
to write much(more because i'm not sure what to say then having nothng
to say), but I'll just try to put up some "interesting stuff" eh? I'll still probably won't be able to tell my deepest and darkest secrets....but i'll try to at least tell some part of my miserable existance.

Well...let's see...how to begin?

Many things have happened to me since i last posted here. One of which
is that i THINK i've officially given up on WS. I just don't have the
heart to go on anymore. I still think that i'm gonna be a bachelor for
the rest of my life, not because i can't get anyone, but more because i
can't let go.....Sad, isn't it? :/

Note that i said i give up, but that doesn't mean i stopped loving her.
It just means i'm not actively pursuing her anymore, because it seems
the more i try, the more distant she becomes.

On a happy note though, i'm finally back together again with AR. As long as i
have her by my side, i think i can live through with what little i have
now. I know i've told myself often not to depend too much on people
that i love, but, we all need ONE thing at least to hold on to, eh? :P

Anyway, i need to rush off for church service now, so i'll update again later.

BACK:

ARGHHH!! I lost my stationary case! I seem to have misplaced it somewhere. How am i supposed to do my work now? :'(

I'm playing Heroes 3 again with some of my friends online. Why that old game? Coz that game allows me to play while working at the same time, since it's turn-based.

If anyone bothers to ask why i'm not bothering to restore the shoutbox on the right side of the screen, it's because nobody ever says anything there anyway. :/

On a side note, YKLS rehearsal tomorrow night! Hooray! Can't wait....^_^

Back again....one more time?

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 03:46:45 GMT

"She" is back again....After much effort, i've managed to secure a "promise" that she'll try to come out and meet up with our "gang" again. This Friday's the date. But she's broken those many promises so many times that i'm more or less expecting her not to turn up.

What i'm NOT prepared for is whether or not she really does have a boyfriend. She claims she does, but knowing her background, i'd probably say she's just trying to make me give up on her. But can i be prepared when it turns out to be true? Will my heart be able to go on?

I think not.

I just hope that my "sister" has better luck than i do, but it seems our fates are more or less similar and intertwined. Perhaps we're cursed. Or perhaps we are just making the same mistakes that brought us into this sorry state. I'll never know. If only she were here...I'd hold her in my arms and cry...

I need you AR....Where are you? Why have you abandoned me?

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 06:38:15 GMT

You Are Cyclops

Dedicated and responsible, you will always remain loyal to your cause.
You are a commanding leader - after all, you can kill someone just by looking at them.

Power: force beams from your eyes

Which of the X-Men Are You?

In Memory of the Croc Hunter

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 09:01:20 GMT

What an irony....

A man as tough as a bull, who faced off with dangerous snakes and giant-sized crocodiles that could tear off your head with one bite, has been killed by a HARMLESS STINGRAY!

If it was any other person, i'd be laughing the shit out of my pants, but no. This is a man who dedicated his life in protecting animals and conserving the things that God had placed under our care. Our world has indeed lost a great man, a good role model for the future generation.

Steve Irwin, may your soul rest in peace. Your dream will not end here.

Friday, September 01, 2006

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 13:37:07 GMT

HOORAY! I'm finally done with the dwarven race for my Forgotten Realms: Battlegrounds map! Yippee!

And sadly, holidays end this sunday. LOL

Uhh.....Holidays?

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 01:38:47 GMT

My third semester holidays has just started, and i'm gonna play, play, play and...............uhh.....play! :P

Well, i'm going out to watch Click with jlkc and eastdeath, as well as a couple of my other friends...so yea.

And, i have to do some of the homework i pledged to do before the holidays. LOL

Bleach Spreee!

Sun, 13 Aug 2006 23:16:54 GMT

I'm on a Bleach anime spree! I've been filling up my time downloading and watching all those Bleach episodes which I missed for all those months. Episode 50+, here i come!